" See, sometimes I worry a lot."
The moon is red tonight, and it's raining;sending me chills running through my veins. It made me worry, kind of, in a sense that a danger might come in a minute; or before I know it, the ground is shaking. That's what's wrong in me. See, sometimes I worry a lot. I worry of not seeing a loved one, or a person I care about. At the back of my head, something's yelling "be careful, there's an earthquake!!!" I fear that a single branch of a tree will fall down and land on a person's head, or mine. Sometimes, I worry an ant will not survive in the strong rain, or a stray dog will be smashed in the between the road and wheels. It's just that little things make me worry too, and I don't like it.
WOW, just after typing the above paragraph, a friend of mine sent a group message saying "WORRYING IS AN INSULT TO GOD." God does know how to send the right message at the right time, through a friend, you know. Okay, so back to what I am saying. Maybe it's not worry, but paranoia? HAHAHA. I don't know. But this wrong thing in me is part of who I am. Take for example my experience with my grandmother. The day before she was admitted at the hospital was the day I last heard her voice. The last thing she said to me is just a word, a powerful word I still hear in my mind whenever I think of her--"AYLABYU." And that's what I do. I always leave people with a kiss, or a smile and always have to say a loving word for them; it's because I always think that that time would be our last encounter. As the song goes, "We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to turn out all around or to throw it all away. We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say, gotta live like we're dying."
Taking in the positive view, having to worry means you're concerned about something or someone; but it's not always good. Because it's true that it takes away the time you'll never get back, and it's useless to spend it worrying. The best way to at least get it off your head is to start the day by praying. Lifting everything to God through prayers is by all means perfect. At least in my case, I am always reminded not to worry--like that of the text message I just received. Having God to depend on in times of fear is one of life's greateast assurance of safety. Genesis 15: 1 says, "Do not be afraid." I'm just doing whatever it takes to protect someone or something, and the best way is to pray...
Then again the moon is red tonight and it's raining...it made me write this.
