Last night in bed, I twisted and turned around because I couldn't get my sleep. It's as if, someone's thinking of me out there, keeping me up. So I kept still. Blanket reached over my head, laying with tummy faced down. It was cold. Concentrating on I'm not sure what it is, words suddenly popped up into my blank thoughts. Words such as: "people," "use," "help," "poor," "money," "love," and finally, "service." I don't get it. Those are simple and common words, maybe used in our everyday lives; until the experience in the Bilibid prison flashed back in my mind.
Money is evil. You can't serve both God and money. But most people are imprisoned because of money matters. The guy I interviewed when we visited them was put to jail because He was caught dealing drugs. "wala kasi akong mapakain sa mag-iina ko, kaya ito na lang talaga 'yung pinasukan ko. hindi naman ako adik eh, taga tulak lang talaga ako ng drugs, runner kumbaga." Tears begun to form in his tired eyes when he was telling me the story. I couldn't help but shed a tear or two because deep down, I knew this man had repented.
God has used these people so that we can learn from their experience. Poverty is not a hindrance to success, but these people had no knowledge about it. Just because they love their families, and money is nowhere to be found except by doing a crime, they did it. They took the risk of being a "bad man" just so they can feed their families. It breaks my heart to wake up in this reality that not everyone knows about Jesus.
SERVICE. In return, I want to help them and teach them of what I know is right because truth will set them free. Last night, thinking in bed, I told myself that whenever I have the chance to help, I would do it. I want to minister, young as I am. And when I become a nurse someday, I want to be an example to the youth so that they can be useful, regardless of uncertainties. So I prayed that God use me in any way to help people, those of in need. I want to be a light to them in their darkest times, that they might be enlightened of what great thing tomorrow can give them if they start doing the right thing.
This is a DREAM entry. I want a MISSION ACCOMPLISHED entry SOON. I really want to.
So help me God.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
once a wayward behavior. . .
I stopped reading the Bible.
I read It only every Sabbath. I stopped my regular reading every night, instead, I read a devotional book my friend gave me. Each entry corresponds with a holy scripture, of course; but I intentionally didn't look for it in the Bible. All because I wanted to trust my own understanding, and praying intimately afterward. Why you may ask?
I wanted to see the difference. "What will it do to me, not reading the Bible every night like I used to,"? I challenged myself, and the quest continued for the rest of October. I find it not difficult to resist the Bible, because I made myself busy watching movies. I was trying to pinpoint a scene that is satanic, on a looking "innocent" movie. I was trying to find something evil on every movie I watched, but I was disappointed to have found none...or maybe, I was just blinded. When I got bored doing the same for a week, I decided to buy a book. Have A Little Faith by Mitch Albom interested me much and I was able to finish it in two days. Which made me write a blog about life. The next days, I was busy enrolling and babysitting. I actually neglected the Bible especially feeling the urge to read it again but not minding it at all.
The best thing in this, well you can call it an experiment, is that God's Words are still implanted in me. I know in my heart that what I was doing was wrong; the Holy Spirit, if not my conscience, bothered me so much yet I was still able to sleep well at night. Maybe because I know that no matter what, I will still be reaching out to God's extended hand, and so I did.
This morning, I decided to open and read the Bible once again. Finally, the quest is finished. The search in finding my real self when it comes to spiritual matters is done. I have known that if you really are sincere in your study about the Bible; whether you go the wrong way intentionally or not, as long as you turn to Him again, you will always find your way back. And so this morning while I was lifting the pages of the precious Book, I was comforted. It was like coming home after running away.
I love what I've learned today. I was reading the Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren and I find it not a waste of time. So sharing what good news I've encountered. . .
Hebrews 2:10a "God is the One who made all things, and all things are for His glory. He wanted to have many children to share His glory."
Rick Warren wrote, "The only way to get into God's family is by being born again into it. You became part of the human family by your first birth, but you become part of God's family by your second birth. God has given us the privilege of being born again, so that we are now members of God's own family."
Romans 8:15 NLT "So you should not be like cowering, fearful slaves. You should behave instead like God's very own children, adopted into His family--calling Him 'Father, dear Father.'"
This invitation to be part of God's family is for everyone...
Mark 8:34 "Then Jesus called the crowd, along with his disciples, and said to them, 'If anyone wants to become my follower, he must deny himself, take up his cross, and follow Me.'"
but there is one condition: faith in Jesus.
Galatians 3:26 "For you are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus."
Since you are His child, everything He has belongs to you...
Galatians 4:7 "So you are no longer a slave but a son, and if you are a son, then you are also an heir through God."
You should know then that,
1 Peter 1:4 "God has reserved a priceless inheritance for His children. That is, into an inheritance imperishable, undefiled, and unfading. It is reserved in heaven for you, "
I smiled with the fact that God welcomed me back with the knowledge of what's waiting for me. I have realized that I am rich in heaven. God is so good and He knows how to correct us, only if we respond to His calling then we'll know how much He loves us. Read Proverbs 1:23.
Psalm 14:2 "The Lord looks down from heaven upon the children of men, to see if there are any who understand, who seek God."
So I encourage YOU to seek God, and find time for Him. It's nice to have a habit of a daily devotional time with God; but it is also important to include Him in EVERYTHING that we do, in every problem we come across, even in every thought we have. It's a great feeling to have a continuous conversation with Him throughout the day by praying, like He's right beside you and you're just talking to Him. We should learn to practice His presence ALL THE TIME. And of course, when we pray, we "pray without ceasing" (1 Thessalonians 5:17); and we should make sure that we honor God when we pray, not control Him.
What I did for almost a month has broken, and melted me, and what I did today to change that, molded and filled me once again with God's undying love. I believe I am used to write this and begin again, bearing in mind God's outstretched hand; knowing that I am part of His family, and do all things for His glory.
Why will I stop knowing the Word when it is the only true promise I can hold on to, and the only Book of Life in this ever changing and dying world?
I read It only every Sabbath. I stopped my regular reading every night, instead, I read a devotional book my friend gave me. Each entry corresponds with a holy scripture, of course; but I intentionally didn't look for it in the Bible. All because I wanted to trust my own understanding, and praying intimately afterward. Why you may ask?
I wanted to see the difference. "What will it do to me, not reading the Bible every night like I used to,"? I challenged myself, and the quest continued for the rest of October. I find it not difficult to resist the Bible, because I made myself busy watching movies. I was trying to pinpoint a scene that is satanic, on a looking "innocent" movie. I was trying to find something evil on every movie I watched, but I was disappointed to have found none...or maybe, I was just blinded. When I got bored doing the same for a week, I decided to buy a book. Have A Little Faith by Mitch Albom interested me much and I was able to finish it in two days. Which made me write a blog about life. The next days, I was busy enrolling and babysitting. I actually neglected the Bible especially feeling the urge to read it again but not minding it at all.
The best thing in this, well you can call it an experiment, is that God's Words are still implanted in me. I know in my heart that what I was doing was wrong; the Holy Spirit, if not my conscience, bothered me so much yet I was still able to sleep well at night. Maybe because I know that no matter what, I will still be reaching out to God's extended hand, and so I did.
This morning, I decided to open and read the Bible once again. Finally, the quest is finished. The search in finding my real self when it comes to spiritual matters is done. I have known that if you really are sincere in your study about the Bible; whether you go the wrong way intentionally or not, as long as you turn to Him again, you will always find your way back. And so this morning while I was lifting the pages of the precious Book, I was comforted. It was like coming home after running away.
I love what I've learned today. I was reading the Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren and I find it not a waste of time. So sharing what good news I've encountered. . .
Hebrews 2:10a "God is the One who made all things, and all things are for His glory. He wanted to have many children to share His glory."
Rick Warren wrote, "The only way to get into God's family is by being born again into it. You became part of the human family by your first birth, but you become part of God's family by your second birth. God has given us the privilege of being born again, so that we are now members of God's own family."
Romans 8:15 NLT "So you should not be like cowering, fearful slaves. You should behave instead like God's very own children, adopted into His family--calling Him 'Father, dear Father.'"
This invitation to be part of God's family is for everyone...
Mark 8:34 "Then Jesus called the crowd, along with his disciples, and said to them, 'If anyone wants to become my follower, he must deny himself, take up his cross, and follow Me.'"
but there is one condition: faith in Jesus.
Galatians 3:26 "For you are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus."
Since you are His child, everything He has belongs to you...
Galatians 4:7 "So you are no longer a slave but a son, and if you are a son, then you are also an heir through God."
You should know then that,
1 Peter 1:4 "God has reserved a priceless inheritance for His children. That is, into an inheritance imperishable, undefiled, and unfading. It is reserved in heaven for you, "
I smiled with the fact that God welcomed me back with the knowledge of what's waiting for me. I have realized that I am rich in heaven. God is so good and He knows how to correct us, only if we respond to His calling then we'll know how much He loves us. Read Proverbs 1:23.
Psalm 14:2 "The Lord looks down from heaven upon the children of men, to see if there are any who understand, who seek God."
So I encourage YOU to seek God, and find time for Him. It's nice to have a habit of a daily devotional time with God; but it is also important to include Him in EVERYTHING that we do, in every problem we come across, even in every thought we have. It's a great feeling to have a continuous conversation with Him throughout the day by praying, like He's right beside you and you're just talking to Him. We should learn to practice His presence ALL THE TIME. And of course, when we pray, we "pray without ceasing" (1 Thessalonians 5:17); and we should make sure that we honor God when we pray, not control Him.
What I did for almost a month has broken, and melted me, and what I did today to change that, molded and filled me once again with God's undying love. I believe I am used to write this and begin again, bearing in mind God's outstretched hand; knowing that I am part of His family, and do all things for His glory.
Why will I stop knowing the Word when it is the only true promise I can hold on to, and the only Book of Life in this ever changing and dying world?
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
have a little faith
Define Life.
This sentence ends with a period but it asks you a question. well not exactly a question, but it has something to do with asking yourself; making yourself walk down to memory lane and allow nostalgia hit you; maybe let you answer bonus questions such as "what is success to you"? or "Ever been depressed"?; sometimes it will bring you to the deepest thinking.
You might be wondering then how I define life. I used to define life with something to do with "existence." I used to tell myself that people who utter words "Get a life!" create an impact on those who just exist. Of course we all exist in this world, but the question is, do we have a life? Now we're getting deeper.
Influenced by Mitch Albom's Have A Little Faith; I have a new meaning for L-I-F-E. Mitch wrote: "The story of my recent life. I like that phrase. It makes more sense than the story of my life, because we get so many lives between birth and death. A life to be a child. A life to come of age. A life to wander, to settle, to fall in love, to parent, to test our promise, to realize our mortality--and in some lucky cases, to do something after that realization."
Now this made me realize that it's true. Back in kindergarten, I defined life by do and play; having God above and my family on earth. This changed over time of course, and in elementary, I told myself that I have a good life. Which means I had better perspective than just do and play. Crossing the border from school age to adolescence, I have realized that life has something to do with death and problems too. Which made me believe that Life is sometimes up and sometimes down. When I entered and finished high school, I have ever since defined life as God's gift. So many experiences in teenage years made me discover life at its fullest. I have seen laughter; felt intense crying, been excited, happy, and lonely; been in love, seen death, been hurt and depressed; walked a mile or two, ran in the rain, developed social life, increased in wisdom, grew spiritually, EXPERIENCED CHANGE.
I have defined life as blissful, and filled with happy memories back when I was in love. I have defined life as something I couldn't take, or in short I can't commit suicide; But there's one thing I realized when I asked God to take my life once when I was hopeless; that I was talking to a greater power, and talking to Him was in fact, "hope." Cliche, because I have defined life to be so short and it shouldn't be spent on regrets; a famous quote often posted on the internet. Truth is, when we regret or when we "look back", we give ourselves a time to realize a mistake and eventually learn from it and look forward for a change. I have defined life to be short in such a way that people die too soon; and then I realized they didn't die "too soon," rather they died on the exact time they were supposed to be. The quote "Everything happens for a reason" applies on this. I have defined life to be happy and worth it if spent the right way. . .and no matter what, IT GOES ON.
At this exact time in my life, due to the storm and setbacks, I can literally and figuratively say WHEN IT RAINS, IT POURS; but God calms me amidst the storm because I let go and let Him work. Nothing under His control can ever be out of control. So the story of my recent life is that I define it as a journey of belief. As a Christian, my belief is found in John 3:16; my belief is in the Word of God, the assurance of His promises keeps me going. What I learned from Mitch Albom's experience is that "we should know what we believe, it should be in our souls. We should be convinced with the authenticity of what we have, but we must also be humble enough to say that we don't know everything. And since we don't know everything, we must accept that another person may believe something else." Now FAITH has something to do with HOW you live your life. People believe differently, whom to serve or not, what church to attend or not. This is the biggest difference we see in people when defining life.
Now it's YOUR turn: DEFINE LIFE.
This sentence ends with a period but it asks you a question. well not exactly a question, but it has something to do with asking yourself; making yourself walk down to memory lane and allow nostalgia hit you; maybe let you answer bonus questions such as "what is success to you"? or "Ever been depressed"?; sometimes it will bring you to the deepest thinking.
You might be wondering then how I define life. I used to define life with something to do with "existence." I used to tell myself that people who utter words "Get a life!" create an impact on those who just exist. Of course we all exist in this world, but the question is, do we have a life? Now we're getting deeper.
Influenced by Mitch Albom's Have A Little Faith; I have a new meaning for L-I-F-E. Mitch wrote: "The story of my recent life. I like that phrase. It makes more sense than the story of my life, because we get so many lives between birth and death. A life to be a child. A life to come of age. A life to wander, to settle, to fall in love, to parent, to test our promise, to realize our mortality--and in some lucky cases, to do something after that realization."
Now this made me realize that it's true. Back in kindergarten, I defined life by do and play; having God above and my family on earth. This changed over time of course, and in elementary, I told myself that I have a good life. Which means I had better perspective than just do and play. Crossing the border from school age to adolescence, I have realized that life has something to do with death and problems too. Which made me believe that Life is sometimes up and sometimes down. When I entered and finished high school, I have ever since defined life as God's gift. So many experiences in teenage years made me discover life at its fullest. I have seen laughter; felt intense crying, been excited, happy, and lonely; been in love, seen death, been hurt and depressed; walked a mile or two, ran in the rain, developed social life, increased in wisdom, grew spiritually, EXPERIENCED CHANGE.
I have defined life as blissful, and filled with happy memories back when I was in love. I have defined life as something I couldn't take, or in short I can't commit suicide; But there's one thing I realized when I asked God to take my life once when I was hopeless; that I was talking to a greater power, and talking to Him was in fact, "hope." Cliche, because I have defined life to be so short and it shouldn't be spent on regrets; a famous quote often posted on the internet. Truth is, when we regret or when we "look back", we give ourselves a time to realize a mistake and eventually learn from it and look forward for a change. I have defined life to be short in such a way that people die too soon; and then I realized they didn't die "too soon," rather they died on the exact time they were supposed to be. The quote "Everything happens for a reason" applies on this. I have defined life to be happy and worth it if spent the right way. . .and no matter what, IT GOES ON.
At this exact time in my life, due to the storm and setbacks, I can literally and figuratively say WHEN IT RAINS, IT POURS; but God calms me amidst the storm because I let go and let Him work. Nothing under His control can ever be out of control. So the story of my recent life is that I define it as a journey of belief. As a Christian, my belief is found in John 3:16; my belief is in the Word of God, the assurance of His promises keeps me going. What I learned from Mitch Albom's experience is that "we should know what we believe, it should be in our souls. We should be convinced with the authenticity of what we have, but we must also be humble enough to say that we don't know everything. And since we don't know everything, we must accept that another person may believe something else." Now FAITH has something to do with HOW you live your life. People believe differently, whom to serve or not, what church to attend or not. This is the biggest difference we see in people when defining life.
Now it's YOUR turn: DEFINE LIFE.
Friday, October 15, 2010
looking forward.
" i want to feed the hungry people, reach across the farthest land, tell the broken there is healing, and mercy in the Father's hands"
I always wanted to be a nurse, on the other hand, I love to write and the world of photojournalism interests me as well. I guess that's a confusion for me, but most of the time, it's not. I thought that maybe someday as a registered nurse, I get to travel the world; and traveling will give me so many reasons to be a photojournalist in my own way, RIGHT?
Well this is just a far introduction to what my blog is all about. I just wanted to start it with what I want to be someday. Here's a great photograph taken by my uncle.
I know you have keen eyes, and you see the reflection on the raindrop. I'm so fascinated with God's creation. So amazed that a raindrop, little and useless as it seems, reflects how great He is. Whenever I'm in the verge of despair, I meditate in the nature; and it brings me so much closer to the Creator. I get to ponder on life's ultimate goal: to give Him all the glory for He is worthy of it. (Revelation 4:11)
I'm just a little bit observant and filled with thoughts about every little thing that surrounds me now; be it a person, an animal, a tree, or a thing. Reminding me that everything I have now are blessings to be thankful for, and didn't cross my life accidentally.
So, once again let me talk about what I want to be in the near future. Maybe after graduating and while reviewing for the board exam, I can use idle time to capture earth's wonders, and put them into words at the same time.
WHATEVER it is that will keep me going on with life, or what will keep me busy, I want to make sure I do it for God's glory; in my words, in my actions and in everything I do. . .because once again, He is worthy of it.
I always wanted to be a nurse, on the other hand, I love to write and the world of photojournalism interests me as well. I guess that's a confusion for me, but most of the time, it's not. I thought that maybe someday as a registered nurse, I get to travel the world; and traveling will give me so many reasons to be a photojournalist in my own way, RIGHT?
Well this is just a far introduction to what my blog is all about. I just wanted to start it with what I want to be someday. Here's a great photograph taken by my uncle.
I know you have keen eyes, and you see the reflection on the raindrop. I'm so fascinated with God's creation. So amazed that a raindrop, little and useless as it seems, reflects how great He is. Whenever I'm in the verge of despair, I meditate in the nature; and it brings me so much closer to the Creator. I get to ponder on life's ultimate goal: to give Him all the glory for He is worthy of it. (Revelation 4:11)
I'm just a little bit observant and filled with thoughts about every little thing that surrounds me now; be it a person, an animal, a tree, or a thing. Reminding me that everything I have now are blessings to be thankful for, and didn't cross my life accidentally.
So, once again let me talk about what I want to be in the near future. Maybe after graduating and while reviewing for the board exam, I can use idle time to capture earth's wonders, and put them into words at the same time.
WHATEVER it is that will keep me going on with life, or what will keep me busy, I want to make sure I do it for God's glory; in my words, in my actions and in everything I do. . .because once again, He is worthy of it.
"Don't let anyone think little of you because you are young. Be their ideal; let them follow the way you teach and live; be a pattern for them in your love, your faith, and your clean thoughts. Keep a close watch on all you do and think. Stay true to what is right and God will bless you and use you to help others." 1 Timothy 4: 12, 16
s o m e d a y
In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman. He was pursuing
the question:
'What kind of man are you looking for?'
She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye & asking, 'Do you really want to know?'
Reluctantly, he said, 'Yes.'
She began to expand, 'As a woman in this day & age, I am in a position to ask a man what you can do for me that I can't do for myself?
I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man... or woman for that matter.
I am in the position to ask, 'What can you bring to the table?'
The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring
to money.
She quickly corrected his thought & stated, 'I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for excellence in every aspect of life.
He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, & asked her to explain.
She said, 'I need someone who is striving for excellence mentally
because I need conversation & mental stimulation. I don't need a
simple-minded man.
I need someone who is striving for excellence spiritually because I
don't need to be unequally yoked...believers mixed with unbelievers is
a recipe for disaster.
I need a man who is striving for excellence financially because I don't
need a financial burden.
I need someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I
go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded.
I need someone who has integrity in dealing with relationships. Lies
andgame-playing are not my idea of a strong man.
I need a man who is family-oriented. One who can be the leader, priest
and provider to the lives entrusted to him by God.
I need someone whom I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must
respect him.
I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business.
I HAVE NO PROBLEM BEING SUBMISSIVE... he just has to be worthy.
And by the way, I am not looking for him...He will find me. He will
recognize himself in me. He may not be able to explain the connection,
but he will always be drawn to me.
God made woman to be a help-mate for man. I can't help a man if he
can't help himself.
When she finished her spiel, she looked at him.
He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, 'You are asking a
lot'.
She replied, "I'm worth a lot".
*from a FRIEND.
the question:
'What kind of man are you looking for?'
She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye & asking, 'Do you really want to know?'
Reluctantly, he said, 'Yes.'
She began to expand, 'As a woman in this day & age, I am in a position to ask a man what you can do for me that I can't do for myself?
I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man... or woman for that matter.
I am in the position to ask, 'What can you bring to the table?'
The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring
to money.
She quickly corrected his thought & stated, 'I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for excellence in every aspect of life.
He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, & asked her to explain.
She said, 'I need someone who is striving for excellence mentally
because I need conversation & mental stimulation. I don't need a
simple-minded man.
I need someone who is striving for excellence spiritually because I
don't need to be unequally yoked...believers mixed with unbelievers is
a recipe for disaster.
I need a man who is striving for excellence financially because I don't
need a financial burden.
I need someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I
go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded.
I need someone who has integrity in dealing with relationships. Lies
and
I need a man who is family-oriented. One who can be the leader, priest
and provider to the lives entrusted to him by God.
I need someone whom I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must
respect him.
I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business.
I HAVE NO PROBLEM BEING SUBMISSIVE... he just has to be worthy.
And by the way, I am not looking for him...He will find me. He will
recognize himself in me. He may not be able to explain the connection,
but he will always be drawn to me.
God made woman to be a help-mate for man. I can't help a man if he
can't help himself.
When she finished her spiel, she looked at him.
He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, 'You are asking a
lot'.
She replied, "I'm worth a lot".
*from a FRIEND.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
"curhat"
Eight People, One Story.
How would you feel when a topic you don't ever wanna talk about sprouted out accidentally in a small group gathering? How would you feel when you're asked of your opinion over something you told yourself never to answer? How about perspiring because you don't know what to say, and passing the question to another person just so you can think about it first? These are some situations eight people had undergone one fine afternoon. Here's the story.
It was just an afternoon when six people started talking about random things when two persons entered the room. Suddenly, a guy among the group started asking this person, let's call him Sam, about what happened between him and his girlfriend. He said they are no longer together, because he broke up with her. The seven put him in hot seat, and let him
speak the truth. He just said that he ended it in a nice way, but he admitted that he did cry.
Upon hearing this, a girl named Rain related her situation with her past lover. She said that her ex-boyfriend broke up with her in a very heartbreaking way. The seven asked Rain then what happened, but she didn't dare answer.
A guy named Zio agreed to what Rain said; that those who are dropped by their partners have no right to tell others what happened. He said that he stopped the thing he and his girl had, because he realized that it was too soon and he only knew the girl for just a while. In fact, he still loves his first girlfriend and he still hopes for her coming back.
There goes Dianne, she realized that what she had with this new guy at school was just infatuation, especially the guy had a girlfriend. She was brought into light, and she realized that it was the best thing that she ended this "thing" with that guy.
Oops, here's Mila, she never had an actual and legal relationship with this guy, but they have been great friends before he left the country. Actually, everyone around them supported their loveteam. The seven guessed that Mila's doing okay, and just going on with the flow.
Now we have Ringo and Janine, they did have their "past love" with each other but when the six started interviewing them, they had nothing to say.
Lastly, We have this guy named Wesley, he already found his dream girl and actually had an affair with her. But he was very hurt because all of a sudden the girl started hating him. Rain actually sympathizes with him, because she felt the same way.
Dianne told them that her dream guy must be God-fearing, and everyone agreed. Wesley and Janine added that their dream partners must be music-minded. Everyone was quiet for a while.
Dianne asked them how will they know if they already found whom God created for them? The boys said that it's not true. God gave each person the freedom to choose whom to love, He's
just there to guide. Zio gave her an example: When you suddenly fell in love with a drug addict, God is there to guide you how to handle that situaion, whether to stop it or not. Dianne then said that the song "When God made you, He must've been thinking about me" isn't correct. Zio answered maybe, and he said that there's a lot more about love that they have to know
about, and they shouldn't rush about it.
Wesley asked Rain what if her ex-boyfriend came back and wanted to be together with
her again; she replied "maybe not anymore, but if he's sincere and his love is true, then I'll make him court me for years." Well all of them laughed and agreed eventually. Zio pointed out that this time in their lives, only admiration is allowed. Everyone agreed once again and realized it was already getting late. They didn't finish their talk in a formal way, because they know what they felt and just kept silent.
Complicated as it is, these people have something common to share: an experience of being in love, being brokenhearted,and being matured. Sure thing, love is just one word but its meaning is only defined by, well I don't know, I guess it's only a choice. When we choose to love, we should love what we choose. Love isn't only about "Feelings" but love is also about "principles." You don't choose to love a person you never like,right? Instead you look for someone you like and eventually fall for them, and you're lucky if the feeling is mutual. Eventually, you'll have a relationship and soon commit to each other for a lifetime. It's just a matter of waiting, time, and of course "making it happen." You shape your own destiny. Well, I'm no experienced woman to be talking about this sensitive matter, but my thoughts are flying with it...
YOU decide, you define, you experience LOVE.
*this is a true story, used screen names though.
How would you feel when a topic you don't ever wanna talk about sprouted out accidentally in a small group gathering? How would you feel when you're asked of your opinion over something you told yourself never to answer? How about perspiring because you don't know what to say, and passing the question to another person just so you can think about it first? These are some situations eight people had undergone one fine afternoon. Here's the story.
It was just an afternoon when six people started talking about random things when two persons entered the room. Suddenly, a guy among the group started asking this person, let's call him Sam, about what happened between him and his girlfriend. He said they are no longer together, because he broke up with her. The seven put him in hot seat, and let him
speak the truth. He just said that he ended it in a nice way, but he admitted that he did cry.
Upon hearing this, a girl named Rain related her situation with her past lover. She said that her ex-boyfriend broke up with her in a very heartbreaking way. The seven asked Rain then what happened, but she didn't dare answer.
A guy named Zio agreed to what Rain said; that those who are dropped by their partners have no right to tell others what happened. He said that he stopped the thing he and his girl had, because he realized that it was too soon and he only knew the girl for just a while. In fact, he still loves his first girlfriend and he still hopes for her coming back.
There goes Dianne, she realized that what she had with this new guy at school was just infatuation, especially the guy had a girlfriend. She was brought into light, and she realized that it was the best thing that she ended this "thing" with that guy.
Oops, here's Mila, she never had an actual and legal relationship with this guy, but they have been great friends before he left the country. Actually, everyone around them supported their loveteam. The seven guessed that Mila's doing okay, and just going on with the flow.
Now we have Ringo and Janine, they did have their "past love" with each other but when the six started interviewing them, they had nothing to say.
Lastly, We have this guy named Wesley, he already found his dream girl and actually had an affair with her. But he was very hurt because all of a sudden the girl started hating him. Rain actually sympathizes with him, because she felt the same way.
Dianne told them that her dream guy must be God-fearing, and everyone agreed. Wesley and Janine added that their dream partners must be music-minded. Everyone was quiet for a while.
Dianne asked them how will they know if they already found whom God created for them? The boys said that it's not true. God gave each person the freedom to choose whom to love, He's
just there to guide. Zio gave her an example: When you suddenly fell in love with a drug addict, God is there to guide you how to handle that situaion, whether to stop it or not. Dianne then said that the song "When God made you, He must've been thinking about me" isn't correct. Zio answered maybe, and he said that there's a lot more about love that they have to know
about, and they shouldn't rush about it.
Wesley asked Rain what if her ex-boyfriend came back and wanted to be together with
her again; she replied "maybe not anymore, but if he's sincere and his love is true, then I'll make him court me for years." Well all of them laughed and agreed eventually. Zio pointed out that this time in their lives, only admiration is allowed. Everyone agreed once again and realized it was already getting late. They didn't finish their talk in a formal way, because they know what they felt and just kept silent.
Complicated as it is, these people have something common to share: an experience of being in love, being brokenhearted,and being matured. Sure thing, love is just one word but its meaning is only defined by, well I don't know, I guess it's only a choice. When we choose to love, we should love what we choose. Love isn't only about "Feelings" but love is also about "principles." You don't choose to love a person you never like,right? Instead you look for someone you like and eventually fall for them, and you're lucky if the feeling is mutual. Eventually, you'll have a relationship and soon commit to each other for a lifetime. It's just a matter of waiting, time, and of course "making it happen." You shape your own destiny. Well, I'm no experienced woman to be talking about this sensitive matter, but my thoughts are flying with it...
YOU decide, you define, you experience LOVE.
*this is a true story, used screen names though.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
U-Turn
I stopped writing in my diary 2 months ago. All because of pain from a person who I thought was worthy of my love, and grief when my dearest grandmother died. I have sworn never to write in that diary again. A writer like me, when hurt is haunted by many words similar to "torment." My thoughts were filled with agony, and I was too scared to put it down in words. So I've decided to stop my habit that has been going on for three years.
But tonight, realizing that GOD allows U-Turns, I've finally decided to write again. It's like summarizing the whole day in a sheet of paper; and once again I've felt the love for writing. Expressing my feelings through paper and pen, or online blogging has made me wise. It has somehow become a refuge. Just like a friend, ever willing to listen.
There is just one thing I told myself, that when I end my entry, I should make sure that the presence of God is felt. Someday, if I am able and if it is God's will, then I can write a book. . .
a book inspired by my own story.
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