Thoughts on a cold afternooooooon

A toast to carpe diem.

Today's expected activity is to run on a sandy, heated area. I planned to get bruised from over running, and get burnt under the sun. The chance to seize the day is a gift from God. To be openly altruistic. To smile even more, no matter what. But reality sets in, today is welcomed with a rainy, windy, love-to-sleep atmosphere. It sets in a homey mood. So i went as planned, running under the rain and luckily not falling over and getting bruised. Thinking now, I actually remember smiling while getting my hair wet a little as i leapt across the puddle on the way to my college building.

Today too, is the 89th of the 366 days in year 2012. Yep, and i got myself in front of the laptop, hugging my 14yr old teddy bear, typing this cliche. Life is really really short to spend on plainly nothing. If the day gives you nothing to do, then think.

Think of the things that brought you to where you are, or appreciate the people you have when you experienced the happiest and worst of your existence. Randomly pick a number, let's say 3, then check the saved messages on your phone, and read the third one. Who knows, the message might light up your day again, or the sender might be thinking of you at that moment. Again, who knows? When the day got even boring try to remember the chuckle you let out when you thought that rain makes you lazy and stops you from taking a bath. Or why not, spend hours hibernating under the comfortable, dry, and warm sheets. It's a matter of getting satisfied with what little or what abundance you have.

You see "life is the messy bits," quoting from Letters to Juliet, and I agree. This is your life at the moment, and you're reading this, and you have to think of what exactly makes you whole. Not happy, but WHOLE. Remember that your life isn't just the happy moments, comes with it are those that left you crying in pain agonizing over whatever you perceived is painful. That's what's making you whole. When it gives you pleasure to remember the sweet memories, you got to look at the painful ones as well, 'cause that's what built you up. It's a balance, and you have to live in awe of how GOD is behind every good thing.

And to live in awe is to seize the day, whatever the day brings you. To seize the day is to be openly thankful of all things, and doing what you want that is especially benefiting others.TODAY, is RIGHT NOW...and RIGHT NOW is your LIFE. What are you still doing?

No case yet? We'll see about that later today.

It's 6:43 in the morning.

Last night until about 2:30 am today, I was busy preparing for case presentation. Acting as the leader of the group gives me authority to demand and give them due dates for their assigned work, but I didn't. Because all four of us shouldn't be blamed for this late preparation.

Ample time of preparation for our case presentation wasn't given to my group. My groupmate got this case at Ospital ng Muntinlupa last thursday, but other school handled the patient. So it was agreed upon that he will handle this patient the next day, but unfortunately, he wasn't able to come to duty due to some reasons. So the clinical instructor asked me to be the one to handle the patient today--an extra duty for me.

Sleeping at 2:30 am and waking up at 4 was a hassle to me. I prayed and asked God for strength, because I lack sleep. I asked Him to just let me stay calm whatever may happen at the hospital today. I prayed for the patients, and for myself as well. "I do not know how this day will end Lord, but I'm starting it with a prayer." I surrendered myself to Him before I ended my prayer. I am stressed so much, but I'll do everything I can in order to finish the preparations within 2 days, and make the case presentation possible. The rest I couldn't handle, I lift up to HIM.

So I came to school and waited for the coaster that will bring us to the hospital until past 5 am, only to find out that duty is already cancelled because we're all late for endorsement. No extra duty for me= no handle of the patient=no case to be approved=no case presentation=supposed panic. But I didn't. Had no choice anyway, why would I fret?

Arrived home feeling pretty much exhausted, washed my face and dropped belly down to my bed. Oops, I thought, there's something I forgot to do, read from today's devotional. As I rose from the bed to get the book, I whispered a short prayer and asked God to speak to me through the message.

GOD never fails. The messaged was about one thing we can change--our attitude. That no matter what the circumstance is, it's how we deal with it matters. Good thing, I thought, that I asked God to keep me calm today.

This time, all I need is sleep. Praise God for an assurance that if your day didn't turn out the way you want it to be, He has a better plan in mind. Peace amidst Chaos. No case yet? We'll see about that later today.