holding on. . .

i am full of love. i know that, it fills me completely with hopes and dreams. with great understanding. with the will to sacrifice and accept pain. with the knowledge of the good and bad. they say, if you want to love a rose, you must have the courage to include the thorns.

and i can feel the thorns scarring me soon..
well it does prepare me to face the separation..
but i love the rose, and will accept it..

after the kiss he might give me before he leaves, it will all be up to him.. i will just wait. .

he may find a girl who can be exactly like me, and divert his attentions to her. ..
but i promise myself to understand him.

he will be very far away, and things can cross his way that will give us both heartaches..
but then, i love him. and i couldn't ask for more.. i just hope he would stay true to me..

as time goes by, we will be used to our temporary alone time.. he has the other part of my heart, wherever he goes.. so when we meet again, we'd be putting it together.. and someday soon will live as one.

i have no regrets of making a choice to fall for him completely. i think of him as my life too.

but i couldn't blame myself to ask him why.. is it necessary for him to leave.. or does he really want to be separated from me, from his family, his friends, his home? is it right to choose to sacrifice alone, than sacrifice together, and keep fighting for our love? well, I DON'T KNOW.
i just respect his choice, cause that's just the way it is.. i just need to keep holding on.. and see how the story goes. . .