i need a long life. . .

Last night in bed, I twisted and turned around because I couldn't get my sleep. It's as if, someone's thinking of me out there, keeping me up. So I kept still. Blanket reached over my head, laying with tummy faced down. It was cold. Concentrating on I'm not sure what it is, words suddenly popped up into my blank thoughts. Words such as: "people," "use," "help," "poor," "money," "love," and finally, "service." I don't get it. Those are simple and common words, maybe used in our everyday lives; until the experience in the Bilibid prison flashed back in my mind.

Money is evil. You can't serve both God and money. But most people are imprisoned because of money matters. The guy I interviewed when we visited them was put to jail because He was caught dealing drugs. "wala kasi akong mapakain sa mag-iina ko, kaya ito na lang talaga 'yung pinasukan ko. hindi naman ako adik eh, taga tulak lang talaga ako ng drugs, runner kumbaga." Tears begun to form in his tired eyes when he was telling me the story. I couldn't help but shed a tear or two because deep down, I knew this man had repented.

God has used these people so that we can learn from their experience. Poverty is not a hindrance to success, but these people had no knowledge about it. Just because they love their families, and money is nowhere to be found except by doing a crime, they did it. They took the risk of being a "bad man" just so they can feed their families. It breaks my heart to wake up in this reality that not everyone knows about Jesus.

SERVICE. In return, I want to help them and teach them of what I know is right because truth will set them free. Last night, thinking in bed, I told myself that whenever I have the chance to help, I would do it. I want to minister, young as I am. And when I become a nurse someday, I want to be an example to the youth so that they can be useful, regardless of uncertainties. So I prayed that God use me in any way to help people, those of in need. I want to be a light to them in their darkest times, that they might be enlightened of what great thing tomorrow can give them if they start doing the right thing.

This is a DREAM entry. I want a MISSION ACCOMPLISHED entry SOON. I really want to.

So help me God.